a little inspiration

"Have courage for the great sorrows of life, and patience for the small ones. And when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task, go to sleep in Peace. God is awake." 
-Victor Hugo

study jamz

this is the last week of my undergrad career....what?! i know, right?! well since it's the last week all of my final projects, papers, and tests are this week. which leads me to my amazing music that's keeping me motivated and going.

Lindsey Stirling is a new, special favorite. she's a violinist and dancer. being a former violinist it's inspiring and i really want to pick up my violin again soon.

below is my current 'study jam' Crystallize. hope you enjoy and i really, really hope i could see her on tour when she's in NY at the beginning of next year!!

12 days until graduation

guys..it's really settling in now. less than two weeks until graduation. as close as it feels i still can't believe it. i think that now more than ever i'm wishing there was just a little bit more time left. especially with my boy being here this past weekend we reminisced of all of the times we had here and how binghamton will never quite be the same for me (or us) again.

i think that change has always been difficult for me...especially moving from phase to phase (high school to college, for instance or changing majors..one too many times for me) but i think that one thing that college has shown me or perhaps something i'm just used to now is that change is constant and at this point in my life all of these changes are good things. i'm really embracing this change from undergrad to grad, moving to Syracuse (someplace i never really thought i'd be..but am blessed it happened this way), embarking on a career path i finally am 100% sure is perfect for me, and so much more i'm sure.

it's funny how all of this landed in my lap. in august, beginning the semester i had no idea if i'd be graduating, or if early childhood really was my niche, if i did get into grad school where i would be...and the list goes on. i've come to enjoy these really quick-paced changes. it's even thrilling (and a little crazy) to think that in a few months things could be completely different.

but like i said i'm excited but also really sad about leaving this place. as much as i've bashed it and tried to escape sometimes, it's been one of the most amazing times in my life and the ways in which i've grown in a personal level, i couldn't have done it without you bing. i love you even though i never want to admit it.,

and to you, i'm glad that i've started this blog so that i can share these changes with you and hope to support you through my experiences.

xx,
Mrs.Dr.

mistakes are always okay

i used to be terrified of every and any mistake possible. and i think i have a lot of that to blame on my upbringing and then not allowing myself to ever make those mistakes. i've sincerely learned as i've become more independent and grown up that they really are okay.. i would not be the person i am today and although i have my good and bad days i'm proud fo who i have become. i have worked so hard and tirelessly to break away and be "me" i'm still working very hard at it and don't think i've perfected it, as yet but i'd like to get as close to it as possible.

i still make mistakes and feel that embarrassment and guilt initially but soon after (and maybe after some  convincing from my boy) it really is okay and there has been so much throughout my life that if i could get up from, that i could do it again. and how bad could it really be?

i think that people (including myself) focus way too much on what other people think and that's a major flaw in our society as a whole. you should want to be happy for you. you should want to look and feel beautiful for you. you should study what you want to and follow the career path of your choice. and again, i'm still working on all of these things myself but i think that once you have that determination to want that for yourself, you will slowly but surely be able to achieve it. i believe it. and i believe in you.

mistakes mean that you're trying and as long as you keep learning and growing, they are okay. and when you have that moment of "feeling dumb" after make yourself some tea or hot chocolate and eat a brownie...always makes everything better ;)

xx,
Mrs.Dr.

do one good deed a day (at least)

the other day i let some people go ahead of me in a line not only did i really not want to be waiting in but didn't even need to be. and that's when my boy texted me..."your good deed of the day" and it made me think..why don't we do more of these? don't you always have the greatest feeling after helping someone out in even the smallest way? let's do it more. that feeling is so worth it but more than that you're making someone else's life that much easier and better for a moment and hey at least one person likes you (even if it's a stranger)

future-talk

so as i've been able to smile a little more often and feel a lot more relieved..i'm so very blessed that my dreams are coming true. it took me a long time to get here and i do think i deserve a pat on the back for although wanting to give up SO many times...i'm still here (struggling) but pushing through. i just want to encourage the so many of you who have felt the way i have in the last four years. through all of the ups and downs of not knowing what your true passion is and being surrounded by so many people who (think) they have got it all figured out. i don't think you ever really can figure it out but the advice i can lend is to try it ALL. you've got nothing to lose. and don't listen to anyone who tells you what they think YOU should do and most of all don't compare yourself to anyone. you're special and you have to believe that.